He is faithful..

I was reading in First Chronicles today. God layed on my heart that He knows the motives behind our decision making, He doesn't see just our executions but our reasoning's. Scary thought but it's motivating me to change. These past few months have been intense. I've been changing (mostly for the better) and it's been awesome. I've gained a lot of knowledge of who God is and who I am to Him. I struggle with seeing my importance to Him, all I see is my sin and how much He should despise us. But He doesn't, because He is good, He is big! I shouldn't mope in my disobedience but use those experiences to grow. I know it's not okay to continue sinning intentionally and asking for forgiveness and start all over again. But that's why grace is there, those times when we really dope out. And I've been doing stupid things for a lack of a better phrase and I'm so ready to stop dwelling on the line of Christian and Worldly living waiting for God to pull me back when I've gone too far away. I can't live like that, it's exhausting and I can never advance and grow in Him. I feel terribly guilty about the people I've hurt in my process of changing but it's all for the better and I need to bring God glory. That is ALL that matters and I need to completely focus on that, but I don't expect anyone that doesn't understand His grace to be able to grasp this concept I'm spewing out. He is faithful and gracious. I can't ever measure up to that, the most I can do is dedicate my life to serving Him and His people. Which isn't a lot when you boil it down. So I want to surrender. Going to church for 40 minutes once a week is just not enough for me. I daily spend time in His word, but that's still not enough for me. I need action! And that's what I'm about, and that's how I want people to know me. Karis the Christian, devoted to loving her God and her God's people. Not, Karis the Photographer who happens to be a christian. I'm excited for the future..GOD IS GOING TO DO HUGE THINGS. Through me..and maybe even you!! You just have to let him (:
Warmly, Karis Oberman. Hebrews 6:19, Jeremiah 29:11